First day in Childcare

Zofie suppose to start child care next week which we paid the Nov fee. I told the teachers that I’m going to let her try out this week because I knew Zofie is going to cry and next week and they will be having more new students coming in. I was afraid the teachers are unable to handle too many crying students all at one time so I requested to start letting Zofie cry this week. I was planning to leave her at the child care and fetch her in the afternoon. When it was time for out door activities I told zofie I’m leaving and will come back and fetch her later. She couldn’t care what I said and continue to enjoy her see-saw. I went away and hide in another room next door. Soon I hear Zofie crying for me. I could hear her walking at the corridor looking for me. The teachers try comfort her but who knows she cried till vomit and that includes her morning milk. I knew she will cry but I never aspect her to vomit. I couldn’t care but continue to hide myself in the room at the corner on the floor. I was reading the book on water birth. The Russian mummy gave birth in the sea where she was watching the sunset at the same time. I thought that was a wonderful experience. There were Russian mummies that enjoy watching the mammal in the sea while giving birth. I wouldn’t get a chance to give birth in the sea but I guess in the bathtub this time will be good enough. Anyway, back to Zofie…the teachers cleaned Zofie and after coming out from the toilet I could hear her play and she stopped crying. She was good during lesson time. She cried again at 11.30am and nap on the teacher’s shoulder for 10mins. The teacher put her down on the mattress there she cried again. She didn’t have her lunch until I came in and fetch her at 12.30pm. She did not sleep in the car nor have her lunch outside with me. She just had her milk. Zofie didn’t want to nap until I scolded her at 4.30pm. She nap till 6pm. tonight she sleep at 10.45pm and she is going to cry again tomorrow morning. I am not afraid of her crying. My concern is she doesn’t want to nap.